of a Sunday morning I reflect on the changes taking place in my life. There is no radio or television on, there is no audible talking…just the sounds of fingers tapping away on a computer. The sun is shining and it is a chilly 31 degrees outside. And the Lord is speaking…he is telling me that I need to let go. I need to start with a clean slate…I need to forget that which is in the past and move forward to the future. Max Lucado had a great thought this morning, I really do need to DIVE IN.
I have alluded to some changes taking place. Over the next few days/weeks, as time and my heart allows, I will share some of those changes with you…starting today.
Many of you know that I went back to school in January of 2010. A business course that while interesting and challenging, wasn’t difficult. My temporary job (of two years) was eliminated and I found a new, fun and challenging part-time job, but it was too far from home. Then I got re-hired at my former place of employment in a great new position that I love and it is only 5 miles from home. Yet, this job is much more challenging and involved AND the class I took in the fall of 2010 and this current semester are VERY difficult…Accounting I (fall) and Accounting II (now). Now…if you haven’t read this blog for very long, then you might want to read this and this for some background. Now…
he is coming back home. To live in my house. He lost his job, looked for a while, got discouraged and disheartened, lived with my sister and her husband for two months (they were VERY gracious!) got his heart broken by what he believed was the girl of his dreams and now is coming back here to live and try to find work. I don’t know what the Lord’s plan is. I am scared and nervous. Our children are always our children…we love them no matter what, but things change as they become adults. Having an adult child in the house is different than having a child your are raising and disciplining living in the house. Three adults will have to learn to live under the same roof and coexist in harmony…or at least TRY to coexist in harmony. *SMILE*
A very good friend gave me some good advice on Friday…she said try to forget the way things were before he moved and try to start with a clean slate. You know, she is right…Andy has had 11 months of life-changing experiences. Doesn’t the Lord give us a clean slate? The person coming back here is not the person that left last May. He told me the other day that he has a new appreciation for food and money.
Lord, things are changing…please give me the courage to forget the past and look forward to the future and your plans for my family…whatever they may be. Lord, please give me the grace to dive into your pool of mercy and grace, not just touch the surface.
Friends…have a wonderful Sunday. I hope that I am coming to grips with the changes taking place and that I can get back to this blog on a more regular basis. Thank you, in advance, for your prayers…I know my prayer warriors will be praying for me and my family. I will be praying for you and yours. May you experience God’s peace and blessings on this day…