Still Here

Did you think I had forgotten all about you? Did you think I had disappeared…never to return? Well, I did not do either of those things! I just had so much to do that when I had my quiet time in the morning the last two days, I struggled to have any coherent thoughts I felt were worth sharing. I was also going into work much earlier and staying much later than normal. The conference is this weekend, beginning today at noon…you know, the one I have worked months on! I will be so glad when this project is completed. It has been a tremendous thorn in my side; someday I am sure I will look back on it and have a different attitude…someday…
This morning, two things have spoken to me that I feel I must share with you, even though I need to leave for work in one hour. Today’s gospel reading comes from John 6:1-15. I want to share with you this:

When Jesus looked up and saw a great crowd coming toward him,

he said to Philip, “Where shall we buy bread

for these people to eat?”

He asked this only to test him,

for he already had in mind what he was going to do.

John 6:5-6 (NIV)

In today’s reflection in Living Faith Daily Catholic Devotions Sr. Melannie Svoboda, S.N.D. reflects that while the apostles were good at assessing situations, they could see that this situation looked hopeless! Where were they going to get food for all these people? She writes, “Sometimes we’re stumped by certain situations in our families, workplaces, parishes or nations. Everything looks hopeless. That’s precisely the time we must turn to Jesus and ask for his help. He just might work things out in ways we could not even imagine. Jesus, I hand over to you those situations I view as hopeless. Let me know if there’s any way I can help you work things out.”

AMEN, SISTER!!!!!!!

That is something I so needed to hear!! Thank you, Lord, for sending this to me today.

The other thing on my heart I wanted to share with you comes from this. I often look at people with younger children and wish I had done things differently when I had children at home, but then I remember I did what I felt was best at the time. I prayed everyday of Andy’s life that I have the wisdom and guidance to raise him properly. Sometimes, I just wonder if he is confused because of something I did or said…but, see Sr. Melanie’s reflection above…

Thank you, Lord, for these wonderful writings I came across this morning. Please help me to embrace the situations in my life that don’t make sense…embrace them and wait to see what wonderful things you might bring up from the ashes of my life. Thank you for a beautiful day. Please help me to keep smiling at work today and tomorrow and remember to be a light for You in a dark world!

Peace and blessings….I missed a couple of days…I hope I still have some readers out there. I would love to hear your thoughts!

Have a good weekend!

2 Comments

GlowinGirl on April 16, 2010 at 12:10 pm

It is so easy to second-guess our decisions and live in regret. Thanks for the reminder that a situation is not hopeless — it's just an opportunity for God to do something amazing.

Thanks for your comment on Sugar Tails. I love making new friends!

Wendy on April 16, 2010 at 1:10 pm

There are things I would do different already too, but I just need to remember I did the best I could with what I knew at the time. I love how God can work all of it together for good. I know there are things that my parents would do differently, but if they did, I wouldn't be the person I am today. And, some of it is what helped me to see my need for Christ.

Hope your conference goes well!