Most Fridays I join hundreds of others for 5 minute Friday…you can read the ins and outs of it here, basically we all write unedited for 5 minutes on a word prompt supplied by Lisa-Jo.
Today’s word is: SMALL
It was just laying there on the ground. The only pine cone for as far as I could see. I wondered where it came from, where the other pine trees were. On the side of the lake, in the middle of the summer…like someone dropped it there.
Sometimes my life feels like the pine cone. Out of place.
Out of sync. And way too small.
Stuck somewhere that maybe I don’t belong.
The pine cone reminded me that maybe, just maybe, it was exactly where it was supposed to be so that I could get a neat picture (or at least I think it’s neat!).
And maybe, just maybe, I am in the exact place I am supposed to be. Even though it feels uncomfortable. The space too tight.
Maybe I feel insignificant, but deep inside I know I’m not.
I know that HE put me in the tight, cramped, too small space because He has a plan.
I am trying not to be like Jonah and run from my story. But wearing my story is uncomfortable.
So…small, tight, cramped or not…I’m hanging in there. Like the pine cone waiting for the photo op.
With all the grief and sadness in the world I wasn’t sure how I would handle today. How I would allow myself to grieve this loss? Today when there has so much WRONG in our world. In a post @deidrariggs shared today she reminded us that life goes on. And I realized that today this is my life. And I can grieve this loss. My life goes on... I am thankful for the 4 days we had her. On Friday I will remember each event of her last day and I will remember her dying in my arms.
And I will be both sad and grateful. #infantloss #trisomy18 #stlouischildrenshospital
Wow this really spoke to me, finding you way isn't easy, is it.
Thank you for sharing this. You have blessed my heart.
~ Cassandra from Renaissance Women
Visiting via Five Minute Friday
I am visiting from #FMFParty this morning & I am so glad that I am! The last few weeks this is what I am learning – every place I have been in life is exactly where God would have had me to be. There were lessons learned that could not have been otherwise learned. You are not small. You are not insignificant. God just used your small human container to house His great & mighty Spirit to achieve big things in & through Him. Blessings!
I love your picture and your analogy! I'm in the same small, cramped place as you. Wondering what God is up to. Thanks for reminding me to trust. Blessings!
I love your photo! I can relate to being in a small place and wondering what God is up to! Thanks for reminding me to trust. Blessings!
"Maybe I feel insignificant, but deep inside I know I'm not."<–I need to print this out and remind myself of it daily. I think we all know deep DEEP down that we are not insignificant but we fear living up to all He knows he prepared us for.
Love that you gave the pine cone its photo op :).
I can so relate to your feelings. I'm in a hard season and feel so small and insignificant. But I choose to believe God has a plan. Have a beautiful weekend!
Mary, glad I came by to read your five minutes of thought provoking words. Hummm…that little pine cone is very powerful when used to start a fire which is exactly what I have been doing with them. Perfect little fire starter especially if you drip some candle wax on them. Good post for such a little word as "small". Good to know our God wants to use even the smallest deed to bring glory to Him.
I absolutely love that you are here, just like that pine cone, in the blogosphere…being uniquely, only you, with your story, and you are being brave and telling us it is uncomfortable, but you are not giving up…Cheering for you, my friend 🙂
so true Mary – sometimes wearing our story is uncomfortable. Loved the way you worded that. looking forward to ice cream this summer.