On Fridays I join The Gypsy Mama for her 5 minute Friday link-up. She gives a word prompt and I write.
1. Write for 5 minutes flat – no editing, no over thinking, no backtracking
2. Link back here and invite others to join in.
3. Meet & encourage someone who linked up before you.
Today’s word: GIFT
It didn’t seem like a gift at the time. All the tears. All the sorrow.
Planning a funeral – not a gift.
Burying a baby child – not a gift.
Having tons of people tell you how sorry they are – not a gift.
No, none of it seemed like a gift at the time.
They say time heals all wounds. I don’t believe that. This is a wound that doesn’t really HEAL, it just gets different. It no longer bleeds, it no longer oozes constant sorrow. But occasionally after almost 20 years it still sheds a tear or tears and the sorrow wells up.
What is a gift is that HE planned it. HE knew what was going to happen and gave me the courage to travel the path back to Him. To believe that all is not lost. All is not in that grave.
Life experiences make us who we are and I am forever grateful for the 9 months I carried her, the 4 short days she lived and the almost 20 years that I remember her.
I feel differently about life because of the gift. I see things differently because of the gift. I cherish things in a way I wouldn’t have because of the gift.
Thank you, Lord for the gift of Amy.
I have found that sometimes the things in life that are the most painful are the greatest gifts, once I get past the pain.
I am so humbled by your honesty, and by the faith you have shown. My post is also about a loss that we experienced — my ectopic pregnancy right before we had our second son. It rocked my world, but — I can't imagine what you and your family had to live through.
Oh, Meredith my heart aches for you. I'll be over to read your post shortly.
Oh, this moved me. Your perspective after twenty years is so beautiful.
Thank you Kimberly…it is a journey.
So obvious to see the healing He has done in your soul. Thank you for sharing.
Laura, without HIM I could not have survived.
Beautiful post Mary. It can be so hard to find the light through the darkness….but your faith has helped you do that. Thanks for sharing.
Thank you, Kathleen. It was/is my faith that gets me through.
Oh friend…your post is a gift to me! I delivered stillborn 2 years ago and am encouraged to see your heart 20 years later. For I don't want the memory to harden. I want to remember the gift given.
And am so thrilled it strengthened you and drew you closer to Him. And gave you a gifted perspective on life… That is a gift indeed!
Hugs to you!
All for Him,
Nikki, I wish I could give you some magic words to make the journey easier, but I can't. I just know that HE know alls and is good above all else!
Mary–we've just 'met' via Gypsy Mama. This was a beautiful post. You will always have the gift of comforting others, too, as the Word says we have when we experience sorrow. No one can feel or understand the pain of losing a child except someone who has been through it.
And your sharing it brings glory to the Father–which is a gift to us.
Thank you, Jody. It is true. My husband and I have been able to minister to others because of the experience.
Beautiful post– thanks for writing about your Amy. I too have lost a child, but he was with us for eight years. I treasure the gift of Steven's life, and I know the pain. The blessing is that God walks with us. He knows.
Beautifully said, Carol…He knows. Yes, he does.
Beautiful amidst the tears and pain–
Thank you friend.
Oh, Mary, thank you for the gift of your honesty and the picture you shared of God redeeming your pain. I am humbled. Thank you.
Oh, Dolly…I am humbled that you took time to stop by. He is the great Redeemer, isn't he!?!
Mary, this is so painful-beautiful. I can only imagine the sorrow, the hard eucharisteo of such an event. What grace He gives us in these things, to somehow, hold our heads up, to rest our broken hearts in His lap. Beautiful words, my friend. God bless your heart!
Kris, it is so true! The grace he gives us when we need it is truly amazing. Thank you for stopping by.