Twenty five years ago, I lost 25 pounds by following the program described by a major weight loss company, after keeping it off for several years, I went to work for the company and stayed with them for 16+ years, even when I left I continued attending meetings, keeping a journal, etc. Certainly my weight would fluctuate a few pounds here and there, but for the most part, I kept all that weight off…until the last 4 years…slowly some of it has crept back on. It does not seem to matter how much I exercise or what I eat, the weight does not want to come off. When I had my yearly physical last November I even cried about it in the doctor’s office. Since we moved here in 2007 and I had only seen this doctor twice, she didn’t know me any other way, but she was so compassionate and gentle…while I complain that I am fat, she reminded me that I am not fat, I look OK, and all my numbers (cholesterol, blood pressure, etc.) look really good. My point is this…as I get older, I am REALLY. STRUGGLING. WITH. MY. BODY. IMAGE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Am I the only one experiencing this? I know there are several 30 somethings that read my blog, I don’t know if you can relate or not, but surely there are some 45+ somethings out there that can relate. Did anyone ever tell you that your metabolism slows down at 30? How about the difference after 35, 40, 45…do I even HAVE a metabolism anymore?!? 🙂
For the record, I do get aerobic activity 4-6 times per week, I do eat healthy 90% of the time and I do try to lift weights 2-3 days a week.
Last week, I told my husband, I know what the problem is…I am getting older and I am having real trouble accepting the changes that are happening to my body, inside and out. But changes in my body is how He designed me and He doesn’t make mistakes. My body is not a car that I can trade in once it gets a few miles on it, although that might be kind of nice. Can you imagine picking out a body…I’ll take those thighs, let’s see, how about that nose with those eyes and arms…I want GREAT arms…really!?!?! Thank goodness, He doesn’t let US do the picking, if He did, I am sure I would mess it up!
So…what is my point…read the verse above…just as I said earlier this week that while my life isn’t perfect, it is MY life and I want to enjoy what God has given me, the blessings he has bestowed on me…well, my body is just that, MY body, a gift from God. I KNOW that I am doing my best (most of the time) to maintain a healthy lifestyle and honor God with my body, therefore, I need to embrace the fact that I am fearfully and wonderfully made, I am HIS, HE is mine and HE made ME…in his image, fearfully and wonderfully!
Lord, I really, really need to fully embrace this concept and stop complaining. Please help me do so. Please continue to remind me that You are in charge and have a plan…thank you for the body I have, with all of it’s imperfections. I know you put them there for a reason. Thank you for this day and the blessings I know you have in store for me. Please continue to work in the lives of those I love, bless them and keep them safe. Please bless those I have promised to pray for…you and I both know who they are, especially be with those that read this blog.
One positive note…I have increased and changed my exercise, added some cross training (biking) and signed up for a 4 miler on July 4th. Last night, I actually RAN for 30 minutes (my walk was longer, but I RAN for 30 minutes), when compared to people like my friend Beth, my running would look like a walk, but hey…I am me, remember, fearfully and wonderfully! Little baby steps…accepting my body starts with baby steps…thank you Lord, for baby steps!
Am I the only one that struggles with this???