He is gone. He came in like a whirlwind last Wednesday evening, bringing his stuff. He brought more stuff on Thursday. I have his stuff in multiple rooms in the house. Now, he is on his way to the airport to start another phase of his life and the mess is left for John and me. I pray that he will remember his upbringing…that he will remember the Lord is his refuge…that he will remember to continue making the Most High his dwelling.
When he was little, the things I worried about where he was concerned now seem so insignificant……22 years later, the things I worry about where he is concerned are of much greater LIFE SIGNIFICANCE. Andy, you will never read this…but know I love you, please remember to stay in touch with the Lord.
The mess…Andy left stuff around the house, in a way, that is like I do with life…I leave my “stuff” around. Good stuff. Bad stuff. Insignificant stuff. Important stuff. Stuff. Just stuff. Fortunately, for me, I serve a living, true God that loves me AND my stuff. He is willing to take me Just. As. I. Am. To love me. Just. As. I. Am. To take my stuff, help rid me of the stuff I do not need. Polish and clean up the stuff that is worth saving. Turning my mess, my stuff into His praise.
Lord, thank you for this phase of my life. As hard as it is and was to watch Andy leave, I am trusting that You will take care of him. Help him grow and learn from this experience. Lord, I pray and trust that you will keep him safe from harm. I do not and cannot understand why this is happening, but I trust that you have an ultimate plan I do not know. I trust that you are in charge and I need to let go and not worry. But, Lord, I am a Mom. So, please help me to get a peace about the situation. Please supply people along Andy’s path that will remind him of you. Lord, I ask that you give me the courage to let go of my stuff and let you take control. Thank you for the blessings I have in my life and for another day to try and serve you. To try and be a witness of your love and mercy to those I meet.
What stuff is dragging you down? Let it go…give it to Him. Have a blessed day.
As the weeks have drug on it has been easy for me to lose hope.
Will things ever get back to some type of normal? People were not created to live in isolation.
Will we be able to see someone smile or will we always look at them and only see their eyes?
Will people gather without having to sit 6’ apart?
I don’t know the answer and I’m not posting this to debate the news media’s portrayal of the pandemic.
I’m sharing this today because I spent some time with the Lord thanking him for the things I DO have and not focusing on the things I don’t have. The things I have lost since March.
I looked up scriptures about hope.
I made a list in my prayer journal of things I’m grateful for.
Life goes on. Life crisis continues even during this pandemic. People die naturall and tragically. And babies are born. And weddings happen and new lives begin.
This crisis in our world isn’t a surprise to God.
And my hope and security is in Him.
If you scroll through the photos, you see things that made me smile this morning and reminded me of the goodness of God - even now.
With all the grief and sadness in the world I wasn’t sure how I would handle today. How I would allow myself to grieve this loss? Today when there has so much WRONG in our world. In a post @deidrariggs shared today she reminded us that life goes on. And I realized that today this is my life. And I can grieve this loss. My life goes on... I am thankful for the 4 days we had her. On Friday I will remember each event of her last day and I will remember her dying in my arms.
And I will be both sad and grateful. #infantloss #trisomy18 #stlouischildrenshospital
Praying for Andy and for you as well.Nice message for me today.
Blessings,
April.