Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.
1 Peter 5:7
We buried her 19 years ago today….She was born on the 9th, died on the 12th and buried on the 16th. After she died I read and re-read all the sympathy cards. I made notes of the scriptures referenced on the cards – not only referenced by the sender, but also put on the card by the printer. This verse was on more than half the cards. For someone that only lived 4 days, it was amazing the number of sympathy cards we received, the number of people that visited the funeral home and the distances they drove. It was an incredibly sad time in my life, but John often notes that it was a time of feeling “held in God’s hands.” This poem was on two of the cards we received:
The Master Weaver
Our lives are but fine weavings,
that God and we prepare,
each life becomes a fabric planned,
and fashioned in his care . . .
We may not always see,
just how the weavings intertwine,
but we must trust the Master’s hand,
and follow His design.
For He can view the pattern,
upon the upper side,
while we must look from underneath,
and trust in Him to guide.
Sometimes a strand of sorrow,
is added to His plan,
and though it’s difficult for us,
we still must understand.
That it’s He who flies the shuttle,
it’s He who knows what’s best,
so we must weave in patience,
and leave to Him the rest . . .
Not till the loom is silent,
and the shuttles cease to fly,
shall God unroll the canvas,
and explain the reason why.
The dark threads are as needed,
in the Weaver’s skillful hand,
as the threads of gold and silver,
in the pattern He has planned.
Anonymous
I no longer live close enough to visit Amy’s grave. I have two dear friends that check on the grave. They never forget her or me this time of year. Thank you, RZ & BG. RZ, I never forget that you are a member of this club too.
Thank you friends – both that I know in real life and blogging friends – for your thoughts, comments and prayers during this difficult time.
Found your blog on another blog I follow. So sorry about your loss. I know they say time heals all wounds but ask a mother that has lost a child and it is not always so. Brought tears to my eyes. Praying for you.
As the weeks have drug on it has been easy for me to lose hope.
Will things ever get back to some type of normal? People were not created to live in isolation.
Will we be able to see someone smile or will we always look at them and only see their eyes?
Will people gather without having to sit 6’ apart?
I don’t know the answer and I’m not posting this to debate the news media’s portrayal of the pandemic.
I’m sharing this today because I spent some time with the Lord thanking him for the things I DO have and not focusing on the things I don’t have. The things I have lost since March.
I looked up scriptures about hope.
I made a list in my prayer journal of things I’m grateful for.
Life goes on. Life crisis continues even during this pandemic. People die naturall and tragically. And babies are born. And weddings happen and new lives begin.
This crisis in our world isn’t a surprise to God.
And my hope and security is in Him.
If you scroll through the photos, you see things that made me smile this morning and reminded me of the goodness of God - even now.
With all the grief and sadness in the world I wasn’t sure how I would handle today. How I would allow myself to grieve this loss? Today when there has so much WRONG in our world. In a post @deidrariggs shared today she reminded us that life goes on. And I realized that today this is my life. And I can grieve this loss. My life goes on... I am thankful for the 4 days we had her. On Friday I will remember each event of her last day and I will remember her dying in my arms.
And I will be both sad and grateful. #infantloss #trisomy18 #stlouischildrenshospital
Oh, dear friend, I join you in prayer for peace and comfort during this difficult time. May you feel his arms around you.
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Praying for you today, Mary.
Praying for you, Mary! May God's presence bring you comfort in this time. (((HUGS)))
Found your blog on another blog I follow. So sorry about your loss. I know they say time heals all wounds but ask a mother that has lost a child and it is not always so. Brought tears to my eyes. Praying for you.