Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.
In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.
Be not wise in thine own eyes: fear the LORD, and depart from evil.
Proverbs 3:5-7 (NIV)
Here I am again…trying to remember that I DO. NOT. KNOW. HIS. WAYS. I. AM. NOT. IN. CONTROL. How long do you think it will take me to GET IT????? On Friday, I woke up with a little sore throat, nothing serious I assumed it was allergies causing post nasal drip since so many people are saying the allergies are really bad this year. I am not usually bothered by allergies, but that made sense. Friday, I go about my day, including a job interview that went really well – they are supposed to make me an offer today. The first interview I have been on where I felt I REALLY wanted to work there. Saturday dawned and I didn’t feel much better, in fact, I felt significantly worse, but I wasn’t running a fever so I went on with my day. I hosted a party on Saturday night for about 40 people, had a great time and went straight to bed when the last ones left at midnight. John put a few things away, but not me! At 1:07 a.m. I woke up freezing and shaking uncontrollably! Obviously, I had a fever. John put so many blankets on the bed to get me warm that I couldn’t lift my legs to change position. I did take some aspirin and warmed up enough to get some sleep. Sunday morning, I could not go to church and when John came home, we went to the Redi Clinic; I do not have strep throat and it could be viral, but to err on the safe side, the nurse practitioner gave me an antibiotic. I felt significantly better in about 6 hours. I am feeling better again this morning, but I am feeling totally overwhelmed with this project at work and I desperately needed to get some work done on it yesterday, instead I rested all day.
Now…I said all that to give you background to say this: I am not in control. No matter how much I thought I HAD to get some things done yesterday, obviously I didn’t. The project is a conference that begins Friday at noon and ends Saturday at 5 p.m. for about 150 people. It is the type of thing for which many companies would hire an event planner…not so with my employer, they used me. Another item for a resume, I guess!
Now…I said all that to give you background to say this: I am not in control. No matter how much I thought I HAD to get some things done yesterday, obviously I didn’t. The project is a conference that begins Friday at noon and ends Saturday at 5 p.m. for about 150 people. It is the type of thing for which many companies would hire an event planner…not so with my employer, they used me. Another item for a resume, I guess!
So, I need to “Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.” I need to phrase that “Trust in the Lord with all MY heart and lean not unto MY own understanding”…I don’t understand, but I have to believe that things will be OK. I have to believe and accept that I can only do so much, what gets done, gets done and what doesn’t will have to be OK. And in the end, I am sure it will be fine. That said – I still worry…a little bit. I not only need to adopt this thought for work, but for my thoughts about Andy as well. I do not know what is going on with him and in his life. All I can do is pray for him.
Lord, thank you for the weekend, the great party and the wonderful friends you have given John and me. Thank you for Andy and I thank you for the difficult times we go through when hopefully, we come out on the other side stronger, better people. Please give him some peace Lord and help me accept whatever your will is for his life. Please help him accept it too. Please help me have a productive day at work. Help me to remember trust You in ALL things and to remember that I do not know THE PLAN! Thank you for your many blessings in my life.
Once again it is Monday…I am thankful for
36. a good night sleep.
37. waking up feeling better.
38. a husband that did all the clean-up after the party.
39. sunshine.
40. warm blankets when I was shivering.
41. a son that is confused.
42. a clinic open on Sunday.
43. Amoxicillin.
44. Ann @ A Holy Experience and all I have learned from her blog.
45. a good cup of coffee.
A son that is confused – I pray with you for I understand. I have a son who is searching and seems empty, needing to draw close his Deliverer, yet wandering. So I am thankful also that God knows the plan and I can trust Him completely!
I'm so feeling you, I got the flu this last week, a few days before I was supposed to have a baby shower at my house, and right in the middle of a bathroom painting project! it was so frustrating. I didn't have a great perspective of it. Thank you for the reminder that HE IS SOVEREIGN and nothing comes to his children that He doesn't screen first. I'm thankful for Ann's blog too, and the opportunity to praise God with other believers on the web. Nice to meet you!
Hi Mary,
I came across your blog through Ann's blog(HolyExperience) and your posts are a huge blessing to me and they inspire me every single day.I thank God for you.I am also surprised that you encourage yourself so much. I try but I cannot take another step….but when I look into your posts, I feel always that things will be better.
May God bless you.
Blessings,
April.
WOW! When I got home from work today, tired and still concerned about the AMOUNT of work to be done…there were comments from the three of you! Thank you…for taking the time to reading and commenting on my blog, for knowing some of what I have been going through with work, Andy, being sick. Thanks so much…I will be praying for all of you too!
We too suffered that weird flu thing..we all thought it was strep but tests were negative..the kids are still working on getting rid of the nasty cough. Thanks for checking out my landscaping..I'll let you know about the topsy turvy..I'm no green thumb, so this seemed pretty easy. I just have to remember to water the dern thing. 🙂 We are in Ga. It's been beautiful weather lately! I think the pool's still a tad bit cold but the kids are much more resilient than I :)!