I have been praying about my writing. About what I should do with this space. I have been so empty for what seems like forever and even though I have wanted to quit and walk away, I could not get a clear sense that leaving…walking away was the right answer.
So, I sat and waited.
I did not close the blog.
I did not walk away.
I continued to pray and seek an answer.
I have the
in(Courage) perpetual calendar on the desk in my office. This morning Holley Gerth‘s words spoke
to me.
in(Courage) perpetual calendar on the desk in my office. This morning Holley Gerth‘s words spoke
to me.
“…part of faith is also about believing that our
obedience
obedience
makes a difference – when we can’t see the results.”
Then I read Jesus Calling, January 14 – today – and Sarah Young writes “Let Me bless you with My grace and Peace. Open your heart and mind to receive all that I have for you. Do not be ashamed of your emptiness. Instead, view it as the optimal condition for being filled with My Peace.”
Maybe…just maybe my obedience is in accepting my emptiness today…right now. Maybe the obedience of not quitting is the only answer I get right now.
For some reason, I find peace in that thought.
So, quietly, in my little corner of the internet I share with whomever is reading this that I am waiting. I am empty of words, but I am at peace.
And that, my friend, is a gift.
Are you waiting on something?
Are you hoping and looking for results that just do not
seem to be there?
Can I pray for you today? If so, please share in the comments.
I'm reading; every post and often inspired. Today I feel led to comment. Perhaps your waiting for someone to comment on your blog post, but I hope you are not blogging just for that reason. I know you love to write and you write so beautiful. God reads every word and whispers his comments back to you in your ear. Keep writing to HIM…He wants you to write to HIM.
Kathy, thank you for sharing you thoughts. Comments are not the issue, in fact, I have considered turning off comments. No…the emptiness is just a dry place right now. Slowly, I think the tide is turning.