Five Minute Friday is being hosted by Crystal this week.
Today’s prompt: BELONG
Go…
It was a sunny June day. We sat in the big conference room. My husband and me and what seemed like 25 doctors, but it was probably only 5 or 6…maybe 8. I just know that I got swallowed up in the moment and tuned them out.
Most of them anyway.
I tuned out the ones that said we could prevent this in a future pregnancy with the right tests and if we got this diagnosis, we could terminate.
That is when I stopped listening.
That is when my husband said, “we aren’t interested in that. Tell us what we need to know about Amy.”
She died later that day. In my arms, in a room with family and friends.
She didn’t belong to me.
She was only on loan for 4 days.
But the truth is, none of my children belong to me. They all belong to Him.
I only get to hold them for a time…sometimes short…4 days…sometimes longer.
I know to whom they really belong. I know to whom I belong.
And I am OK with that.
The earth is the Lord’s, and everything in it,
the world, and all who live in it;
the world, and all who live in it;
Psalm 24:1
STOP
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Last week was my first Five Minute Friday and without knowing or planning I wrote about the moment when my sister died. And now in my second week, I read your words, your memory of life and death of love and grief. We need to share these things and I'm glad I've been one of your witnesses. Thank you.
Thank you for stopping by and so glad you joined 5 Minute Friday. I tried clicking on your name so I could check out your blog, but it said the link wasn't found. I'll try to find you at the link-up…I want to read your story.
Oh Mary….
I pray the Lord continues to embrace you and keep you covered with his strength and love. Your ability to write this is just another testimony of His strength in you. Thank you for sharing this. I think it's an amazing reminder to all of us that our children are only on loan to us. They belong to Him.
Michelle, I am so thankful for your words of encouragement. Our children really are on loan and that is a sobering thought for me. Thank you for stopping by.
Mary, after you commented on my blog today, I had to come visit and learn more about you. Of course, I wasn't expecting to read your soul-baring words. But the core of your post and its focus has been my mantra since my only child was born — they are only on loan and do not belong to us. Some are with us longer than others but they all belong to Him. Beautifully written. I am sorry for your pain and loss but so thankful for your walk and understanding. Looking forward to more interaction with you.
Thank you…
Humbled that you shared. Grateful for your words. Thank you again.
I'm so grateful you stopped by. Thank you.
Dear Mary
It brings so much peace to my heart to know that Jesus loves my children much more than I am capable of and that in His care, is the safest place where I can leave them. Yes, they are gifts from God, but they do not become our possesions.
Blessings XX
Mia
"more than I am capable of…" yes, Mia! So well said. Glad to see you friend.
Beautiful heart wrenching post. Beautifully written!
Thankful for the beautiful gifts God gives us.
Thank you…I am humbled by your words.
That is is so beautiful. It really makes me stop and think. If I could keep that thought in mind at all times, it would change so much about my parenting. Thanks for sharing your heart, Mary.
Oh, Kathleen, I love you so much! You are such a dear in real life friend!!
May God continue to soothe you and cradle you in his arms. You are soooo right. Our children are only on loan (and I needed to be reminded of this today). Thank you.