It started snowing yesterday afternoon. It continued through the night and this morning there are about 8″ on my deck. I took this photograph last night, just before I went to bed.
See the pieces of snow on the window? I thought that was so interesting.
Random flakes collecting in random groups on the window.
But maybe there is nothing really RANDOM about it at all. Maybe it was planned. Planned to fall from the sky and collect on the window so that I could see the beauty of it.
I believe He has a plan for me…
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord,
“plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
And he has one for you too.
Will I allow him to do His work in my life this year?
Will I allow him to control my heart, my tongue, my life? Or will I try to take the wheel and drive life’s highway with him in the passenger seat?
I am contemplating these things while I start this new year.
my parents are 90 and 91 and their birthdays are in February. The week before Thanksgiving my dad fell and cracked his pelvis. He was in the hospital, then rehab, back in the hospital with pneumonia, then back in rehab. He went home on Christmas Eve. John, Andy and I drove to visit them on 12/26 and returned home on 12/31. (It is approximately a 20 hour drive.) Thus, I have not posted since just before Christmas. My dad need help going to the bathroom, getting in and out of a chair, pushing the wheelchair…basically everything except feeding himself. And he has the beginnings of Alzheimer’s disease. He requires constant care and attention and this is falling to two of my brothers (each living 90 minutes or further away) until we can get help arranged.
This is one of those instances in life when I am remembering that God has a plan. I don’t know what it is…I don’t know what it looks like…but I know there is one.
Just like the snow on the window, my life, your life and Daddy’s life is ordained by God and planned by him.
I have to trust that…
Even when I don’t “get it”, He does.
Even when I don’t understand it, He does.
Even when I don’t think I can do it any longer, I don’t have to because He will hold my hand.
For I am the Lord your God who takes hold of your right hand and says to you,
Do not fear; I will help you.
Lord, I am trusting that you will work in the situation with my parents. I am praying that Daddy doesn’t have to suffer…that you will take him home peacefully and quietly. I realize that might not be your plan, so please help me to accept your plan and your will in this situation. Thank you, Lord, for the time I got to spend with my parents and my family.
I feel like I have been in a vacuum since just before Christmas. I wanted to do a recap of 2013 post…I may still do that next week. And I have some things on my heart for this blog, but I am still fleshing them out. Thank you for your patience and faithfulness.
What random snowflakes are collecting in your life that
really are not random at all?
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I read these verses this morning as part of @stephanieweinert chapter a day challenge
It has been months since I have shared in this space. A lot of hard things have happened.
Tomorrow it will be four months since the sudden death of a close family member that was in his mid-fifties.
The grief is palpable. The loss is cavernous.
And life goes on.
And I remember that “he is my help and my shield.” And I will be thankful.
With all the grief and sadness in the world I wasn’t sure how I would handle today. How I would allow myself to grieve this loss? Today when there has so much WRONG in our world. In a post @deidrariggs shared today she reminded us that life goes on. And I realized that today this is my life. And I can grieve this loss. My life goes on... I am thankful for the 4 days we had her. On Friday I will remember each event of her last day and I will remember her dying in my arms.
And I will be both sad and grateful. #infantloss #trisomy18 #stlouischildrenshospital
Thank you for sharing a glimpse of His beauty this morning. I desire to see His beauty in every day living. So far, the last two weeks have been spent on the couch with a terrible chest cold. Yes, God has a plan, even in the midst of our struggles. He's so faithful!
I am so sorry you've been sick Barbie…hope you are feeling better. I prayed for you friend.
Feeling the pain of watching your parents go downhill in health and mind. 🙁 That was difficult for me too, and mine were only in their 70s when it happened. Praying for peace in the "randomness" of it all as you go through making decisions for their care…. I know you'll handle it well with grace.
Thank you friend…I appreciate your prayers. The options for my parents are so limited.
Praying for you, Mary, as you walk through this season with your sweet parents. 90 and 91 … amazing.
Thank you, Glenda…I appreciate the prayers.