It was late afternoon, but early for dinner. The restaurant was getting full, but not overcrowded. We sat at a high-top table in the bar. The chips were warm and salty, the salsa mild but good and the margaritas were excellent. We shared a dinner of fish tacos and carne asada quesadillas. And talked.
It had been months since we’d had a chance to catch up and we were both looking forward to spending some time together. As we finished dinner the talk turned to life and the deeper subject of moving on after being wounded by pain and loss.
Moving past the hurt.
Past the pain.
We talked about what moving on looks like and how you do it. She’d been hurt. Deeply hurt.
I shed a few tears as I shared with her what happened after Amy died. How I didn’t move on well. I told her how it was two full years before I finally broke down.
Then I was a mess. A total mess.
I shared how the last 3 1/2 years have been really hard with serious illness in my family, losing my parents and mother-in-law. Then I told her, “But I believe God is totally trustworthy.”
She said, “Do you really believe that?”
“I do,” I replied.
I believe He has a plan and I can trust that plan. Jeremiah 29:11
I get where she is coming from. It seems like platitudes abound in the world of Christians. We say things because they sound like the right thing to say. But this statement was no platitude. For me, it is a truth to which I cling.
It has taken me many years to get to the point where I can believe it.
Where I can believe that He will NOT leave me high and dry. That He IS totally trustworthy.
Yes, I was taught this all my life, but that doesn’t mean that I embraced and believed it. Life has taught me that it is true. That it is fact.
We have Christ and we have hope in him as an anchor. Hebrews 6:13-19
And that it is something to cling to when life is hard.
Because that anchor will hold. Always.
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Do you believe God is totally trustworthy? Do you believe that your anchor will hold?
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