I am still processing the things I learned about myself last weekend while on retreat.
It is going to be a long road.
Because what I learned isn’t pretty.
I don’t want to admit what I know to be true.
But this I know…that following the will of the Lord, even when the self-discovery is painful, is better in the long run than running away from the truth.
I don’t want to waste time wishing I was different.
So, while I work on accepting these things about myself I will try and follow the example of my friend Stefanie.
Lord, I am trying to come to grips with the parts of me that are ugly. Personality traits that are not pretty to look at…not nice to be around. But I know that you made me, Lord. And you don’t make junk, so I will remember that I am fearfully and wonderfully made. I will remember that you know what you are doing…and that I don’t. I will remember that this blog belongs to you. You will bless it in the way that you want. I will trust you to tell me when, if and how you want me to promote my blog. And I will rejoice in the blessings you have bestowed upon me. And I will wait. Patiently.
Friends, this is not an easy process…thank you for your patience. Would you please pray with me as I walk this road?